"Things do not change; we change."
― Henry David Thoreau
There's an ongoing joke between my friends and I right now. It goes like this: They ask, "What's new?" And I reply, "Oh, not much..."
Then, we laugh.
It's funny because everything is new.
In the last three months, I've filmed a TV show, broken off an engagement, quit my job, and moved to New York City. And yes, I even braved the cliché blonde-to-brunette move.
It might look like a lot of things changed in my life - and they did. But that's because I changed.
I went away for a period of about a month to work on this TV project - and in that time, I learned so much about myself and what I wanted from life. It took being removed from my day-to-day life to realize this. Why? Because I was happy at the time... and because of that, I had no reason to question the path that my life had taken.
What I needed was time alone, time to dig deep within myself. I realized that I was not yet ready for a family - or to be married, for that matter. I realized that I had met my then-fiancé when I was 22 years old. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life at that point. I didn't even know I liked to cook. So, yes - in the past five years, I realized that somewhere along the lines, I had changed, and here it was - coming to the surface.
Change meant that I had to hurt someone that I cared very much about, and that was hard. But where would we be in life if we didn't change? We would flatline. And, in essence, we would be dead. To embrace life, is to embrace change.
There was a big, big world out there, I realized. Much bigger than the bubble - be it a happy one - that I was living in.
And in this moment of clarity, I was sure: New York City was the move.
I had always wanted to be in New York and sitting here now, I realize: I wasn't ready yet back then. Everything that I've done and experienced since has led me to this point, and I'm extremely grateful for that.
Now is my time to experience New York. Now, I'm ready.